Feelings feel bad

I have a feeling.
It feels like there is something missing.
I know what it is, I do know my missing.
I want it to go away, this feeling.
I dislike this feeling, of missing.
I do not miss you... it's just empty.
Your presence still lingers,
which makes me feel quite empty.
I have this feeling.
It might be the sudden realization,
that you might just really be gone.
I really wish you are.
But I just also really doesn't like to have this feeeling.
To have a feeling that feels like a part of me is gone.
Like there's something missing.

Like I have emptiness cursed all over myself...